It's funny how long it takes for your head ot catch up with what your body is doing.
I'm hearing the same thing from everyone I speak to - looking in the mirror and still seeing the same, bigger version of yourself, walking into stores and still automatically picking up larger sizes than you now fit into, generally still thinking of yourself as that person who wasn't as fit and healthy and capable as the person you've now become.
It's a strnge phenomenon.
I guess we all have this perception that once we've become the verson of ourselves that we want to be, we'll walk with a swagger and our heads held high, but so many people I know are now BECOMING that person and are still just as afraid or shy or self conscious, maybe even more so!
I was at a warehouse sale for one of my favourite fitness clothing brands last week.
I bought a pair of their pants the day I joined my gym last October in a size US10 (that's an AU14). They were roomy, but comfortable.
A few months ago I'd gone back there and bought a top, this time in an 8.
It fit nicely but had since become a little bit big around my hips and stomach, but do you think I could accept the fact that I might be small enough to fit into a 6 when I was shopping last week?
Not on your life.
With my boyfriend waiting diligently outside (bless him), I painstakingly (and unnecessarily) waited in line for the communal change room and marvelled as I tried on a variety of sizes only to find that of course I fit into 6's now. Even a couple of 4's!
Of course, this wasn't enough proof for me, they must have been cut bigger than most other brands.
Girl logic! What?!
My proof came the next day when I went to a football match with my mum.
It's an annual event for us, and a tradition that we take a photo of ourselves together.
When I looked at the screen and saw this:
I realised that I actually HAVE lost all that weight! Who woulda thought?!
Everyone but me apparently!
Ignoring my tired eyes, I realised I look thin.
More importantly, I realised I look healthy and fit - most importantly, I realised that's because I now AM healthy and fit.
It was an AMAZING feeling.
I walked in the Relay for Life in the 18 hours following, I wore my size 6 shorts and I felt fit and strong and happy, and it helped me to conquer over 60km.
Of course I went home the next day and looked in the mirror and still didn't see the same girl I'd seen in the photo less than 24 hours earlier but I'm getting there - slowly but surely - and once I do, look out, I'll be walking with a swagger the likes of which have never been seen!