Ever since I can remember, I've hated my legs.
Since before I was old enough that I should know I had fat legs.
It was mostly due to the fact that it was cool to read Dolly magazine with my friends and ooh and ahh over the pretty girls with the long, skinny limbs.
That, and a few cruel schoolyard comments.
My mind was pretty much a breeding ground for low self esteem.
Skip to current day and I'm still not over it.
Thanks to 12WBT and enormous amounts of hard work, I'm actually smaller now than I was when I was 17 - only a couple of kilo's lighter, but inches smaller, but I still can't get over the leg thing.
When I go out at night, I wear tights with my skirts so that if there is any wobble, no one will see it. I've let myself advance to skinny jeans, but I generally wear long, flowing tops or jumpers just in case my thighs look thunderous.
And I never wear shorts to the gym
That's just a cardinal sin.
Well yesterday (mostly because my gym gear was all in thew wash - damned Melbourne weather), I had no choice.
All I had left was shorts, so shorts it was.
And to my surprise, I didn't see anyone snickering and pointing and whispering and disgusted at my legs.
In fact, no one cared - not the skinny little things on the stepping machine, not the big buff weights men and, after a while, not me.
I was excited.
If no one, including myself, was seeing fat legs, maybe the fat legs were all in my head?
Being a casual Sunday at the gym, there was really no one around to share my excitement with, so I went home and celebrated in my own way - I had a soak in a lovely bath, and when I got out, I threw on a pair of leggins and a tight top.
Not a long, flowy one to hide my thunderous thighs.
And as I strutted around making dinner, Coupe mentioned how good I was looking and pinched my bum and I smiled and thought that maybe I can strut around home in my leggins more often now.
They shouldn't go completely to waste now that I'm going to be wearing shorts and skirts everywhere, right?!
It's the little wins that make it all worthwhile!